What was your New Years Resolutions?

• Mine was to lose weight, losing baby weight when you arent up to working out yet due to some issues sucks....it just plain sucks.  I need to get this weight off.

• Organize...not even organizing as much as shit ridder.  I need to get rid of a lot of shit we have in the house that hasnt been used in years. 

• We need to get our Will, finances, and paperwork ready should something happen to one or both of us.  I decided to also write letters to my kids and family that will take care of the boys if we were both to pass away.   Do you know how hard it is to write a letter to your sons telling them goodbye and what you expect them to do with their lives.  IT IS TORTURE AND THE HARDEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE but I feel its necessary and they will need them should the time come.   Life is too short not to be prepared for the worst so I want to make things as easy on the kids and my sister who will take care of them as much as possible. 

• Spend less time worrying about things and enjoy the everyday with my kids, so what if my hair is a mess, Im still in my pjs sometimes in the afternoon,  Im having a great time raising our kids and I need to stop worrying about my job that I had to let go, stop worrying about the small stuff and just enjoy this, its a gift from my husband who is completely fine with me staying home and not working.  I can work anytime, I can work when the are in high school.....for now I just want to enjoy them.

• Be a better wife.  Spend some alone time with the hubster as well.  Its hard when the baby is asleep right there beside us but we need our time as well.  Ive also noticed this about our marriage that going to church has worked for us.  Not just spiritually but we are better parents and spouses for it.  It calms the house.  Its also good for your sex life.  I know sex and church dont really go hand and hand but it makes your marriage better which therefore makes everything else better...such as sex! 

Monday I go and speak to the doctor about the surgery I am having to correct some of the issues I have had since hemorrhaging.  I am unable to leave the house several days a month due to all of the bleeding and Im in pain so hopefully this will correct the issues.  They will scar my insides as well so we will have to be done having babies.   If this option doesnt work then it may be a hysterectomy so lets hope this procedure works.  Ive heard that the procedure can be painful but lets face it...nothing can compare to the pain I have already been through after birth.  I will only have to be on bedrest for a few days and on minor pain medicine so I say bring it on, fix the problem, its a step closer to having things back to normal for me.  High maintenance I have said it before and I will say it again that lady parts are high maintenance.

Christmas was great!  I spent the week with my mom visiting us and then my sister.   We took the kids bowling, we shopped, we laughed, we cried, we played lots of Dance Party 4 and laughed some more.  It was a wonderful week.  Lots of cooking on Christmas Day, the house was filled with family and the kids got a lot for Christmas.....maybe its not a lot and its more like big stuff so it looks like a  lot.  Pearson got a lot of ride on, push toys for when he is ready.  That poor kid has 2 teeth in and is up several times a night.  Which means mommy is only getting about 4 hrs of sleep so Im very tired lately.  Preston got Sklyanders which he loves and Trinity got a lot of clothes which is what she wanted. 
For New Years my TN family went back home so we just needed some down time so we spent the night in and just curled up and watched a movie.  None of us made it till midnight for the 3rd year in a row.  Im just going to assume that a ball still drops on that day. 
We hope your Christmas and New Years was good to you as well.  Now its time to clean, de clutter and find a place for all of those toys.

2012 Christmas Decor

2012 Christmas decor at the Bolin's, just a few pics of some of the decorations

back of Front door

Family room tree

Mantle

mantle

mantle

hallway candy tree

banister

dining room Christmas village

Dining room chandelier

Dining room Christmas tree

front door

Elfie Shelfie visits our home

Here are just a few things the silly elf has done at our house, more pics will be added.  I'm loving being able to hold this over my child's head however after Christmas I'm going to need something else to get him to behave like he is now.  Elfie does disappear every now and then when behavior is unacceptable and reports to the North Pole to Santa.  My kid is going to need therapy for this someday.

My wall

Have you ever had one of those days where you burst into tears and you cant hold them back?  Yeah my day was today.  I had another doctor appointment to see if they can figure out what to do about my lady parts.  Ive been dealing with some issues ever since I hemorrhaged.  Surgery is an option but back to crying for now.  Anyways before my lady parts appointment I had a mammogram set up.  I havent shared this with anyone other than my hubby but I have been feeling uncomfortableness on my left side under my arm so I was scheduled to get it looked at today.  The appointment had been set up for 2 months.  Because Pearson isnt allowed in the room for the mammogram that meant Lowel needed to come to my appt so I pick him up at work and we head across town to the doctor for a one stop do it all while Im here check me high and low kind of appointment.  The nurse proceeds to take me back into the room asks me why Im there and a few other questions such as my last pregnancy.  I proceed to tell her 4 months ago and she says she cant do the exam then.  I informed her I wasnt breastfeeding and its my decision and I want one.  She begins to tell me that she cant due to the fact that milk may still be in there...blah blah blah.  I let her know I have an uncomfortableness in the boobie area and she continues to tell me she cant.  I lost it....big time.  I start yelling at her Im 38 years old, I made the choice to get it checked,  that was not told to me during the set up of the appt and that its stupid reasons like this that keep women from coming to get checkups.  I apparently was still mad because then I said no wonder so many women dont even know they have breast cancer because they get turned away when they want to get things checked out.  Insert tears at this point.  I know it sounds bad but I just couldn't stop the anger and the tears from coming, they were building up.  I have dealt with so much stuff since being pregnant and I wake up in pain everyday.  No one even knows half the stuff  I have been dealing with because I keep it to myself for the most part.  Some of it family issues, some of it mental and physical pain and more that I cant discuss.   I take daily pain medicine. I got off oxycodene and now Im on several aspirin a day, I still have postpartum depression and the doctor and I discussed that as well and my options.  It was just to much today, too much stuff and  too many issues to deal with.  Heres to hoping tomorrow is a better day. 

I havent been on my laptop lately and its hard to post from my ipad so today Im getting caught up on my thankfulness.

November 3rd,
  Im thankful for my marriage and my husband who loves me unconditional.  He takes care of me when Im sick, he helps with the kids so I can get some rest and he is a great father.   He makes me laugh and challenges me in a good way to do something I want to do or go after my dreams.  He and I have had to go through a lot during our marriage and yet we still come out loving one another even more than the day we met.  He is a good man!

November 4th,  Im Thankful for my life.  I love our life here in CW and the town we live in has been a blessing to us.  My husband works hard so that we can have a nice house and we are very involved in the community we live in.  Its a great town.

November 5th,  Im thankful for Coke....I know thats silly but without it I wouldnt be able to function sometimes.  It gets me through sleepless days, headaches and exhaustion.  I love me some coke.

November 6th-Im thankful for my friends, we have a great circle of friends that we do stuff with all the times.  The husbands do things as the girls as well and have our times when we go separate ways with our friends but always come back together all as families.  Its a great feeling to have friends that are like family.  I love that my friends have good marriages, good sex lives with their spouses (yes thats important) and we like to be around each other.  We get together 1-2 times a week and they are blessings. 

November 7th- Im thankful to be able to stay at home and not worry about anything.  My husband works hard so that I dont have to worry about a job.  I love being home with my kids, not worrying about a sitter and having to juggle it all.

November 8th-Im thankful for my family.  I dont get to see them often but they are always there.  I have a wonderful sister, brother, mom and dad.  They support me , love me and we cant wait to see each other.  I love talking to them on the phone and seeing them on facetime so that its like Im right there with them even when Im a couple states away.

November thankful

November 2nd
  I am thankful for my sweet baby boy Pearson.  Just when I thought we were done having kids we were blessed with another boy.  If they could all be as good, sweet and loving as him I would have a dozen more just like him.  He is a pure joy and completes our family.

November Thanks

For the month of November, the month of Thankfulness, I will randomly write what Im thankful for. 

November 1st-I am thankful for my sweet son, Preston, who makes me laugh everyday.  When I asked him what big item did he want for Christmas this year his answer was giants. 

I told him a while back in kindergarten that if he got straight A's from here on out that we would buy him a new car.  Today he brought his report card home with straight A's and said I will take a camaro like bumblebee please.   I may regret telling him that.  Here's to 3 years of straight A's and counting...atleast he is counting.

Happy Halloween 2012

Happy Halloween from our little R2D2 and Power Ranger

 

 

Rolling, Rolling, Rolling at 3 months & 2 weeks old