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Have you ever had one of those days where you burst into tears and you cant hold them back?  Yeah my day was today.  I had another doctor appointment to see if they can figure out what to do about my lady parts.  Ive been dealing with some issues ever since I hemorrhaged.  Surgery is an option but back to crying for now.  Anyways before my lady parts appointment I had a mammogram set up.  I havent shared this with anyone other than my hubby but I have been feeling uncomfortableness on my left side under my arm so I was scheduled to get it looked at today.  The appointment had been set up for 2 months.  Because Pearson isnt allowed in the room for the mammogram that meant Lowel needed to come to my appt so I pick him up at work and we head across town to the doctor for a one stop do it all while Im here check me high and low kind of appointment.  The nurse proceeds to take me back into the room asks me why Im there and a few other questions such as my last pregnancy.  I proceed to tell her 4 months ago and she says she cant do the exam then.  I informed her I wasnt breastfeeding and its my decision and I want one.  She begins to tell me that she cant due to the fact that milk may still be in there...blah blah blah.  I let her know I have an uncomfortableness in the boobie area and she continues to tell me she cant.  I lost it....big time.  I start yelling at her Im 38 years old, I made the choice to get it checked,  that was not told to me during the set up of the appt and that its stupid reasons like this that keep women from coming to get checkups.  I apparently was still mad because then I said no wonder so many women dont even know they have breast cancer because they get turned away when they want to get things checked out.  Insert tears at this point.  I know it sounds bad but I just couldn't stop the anger and the tears from coming, they were building up.  I have dealt with so much stuff since being pregnant and I wake up in pain everyday.  No one even knows half the stuff  I have been dealing with because I keep it to myself for the most part.  Some of it family issues, some of it mental and physical pain and more that I cant discuss.   I take daily pain medicine. I got off oxycodene and now Im on several aspirin a day, I still have postpartum depression and the doctor and I discussed that as well and my options.  It was just to much today, too much stuff and  too many issues to deal with.  Heres to hoping tomorrow is a better day.